Sometimes it’s not easy. I volunteer with a local charity. I’ve been doing it about 5 years now. It has been going for over 40 years and is entirely run by volunteers. Last year it won a Queens award for voluntary service too.
Our local MP – or ex MP as he is now until the General Election if he wins – is the Vice President of this charity. Oddly enough he turned up at an event on Saturday showcasing local volunteering organisations. I manage the social media for the charity and was sent a picture of him to post on the Facebook page. The charity is strictly a non political organisation and just over 2 weeks before the election this felt wrong. I thought about it further, and reflecting his voting record in the commons decided that morally and ethically I had to stand by my principles.
Not only that it felt disrespectful to all the volunteers who give up their time for no personal gain. He arrived at our AGM last year after it was finished and didn’t turn up at all to the presentation of the Queens award. How odd then that he has time now with an election looming (not)!
I do wonder how many people check their MP’s voting record? Although he consistently votes for gay rights (surprise, surprise he is gay!) he voted against the promotion of equality and human rights – go figure! He has voted in favour of trident, military action, fracking, fox hunting and the bedroom tax and other policies that negatively affect the most vulnerable in our society and against allowing in more Child refugees.
I was discussing my dilemma with some Buddhist friends this evening and they agreed with me. It’s not always easy doing the right thing and going against the herd. I don’t always get it right but I will always strive the best I can to ensure the mark I leave on the world is mostly positive.
Not in my name.
It’s one year on since I put out my request to be united with my soulmate. You did good and sent me exactly what I asked for (including what I didn’t want) but I accept that’s my fault because I didn’t put it in the positive. I’ve learned a lot about myself in the process and I now love myself a whole lot more. I also have more clarity about how I want my life to look and what my dealbreakers are.
So here is my request again – tweaked.
Now I’d like to be in a loving committed relationship with my soulmate. Thanks universe.
Love Helen x
I confess I’m an incurable romantic. I love the notion of a man sweeping me off my feet and we fall madly in love. However I also have my feet on the ground and know that love is a verb and takes commitment from both parties.
I went out with someone a few times and at the end of the first date he said he thought there was ‘chemistry ‘ between us. I wasn’t sure but I knew I liked him as a person.
On the second date we were kissing and he said he hoped we could one day spend the night together and still be friends. I said no, I’m 53 and want a serious relationship so not until we have that. He was a great kisser but I was determined I wasn’t going to get carried away!
On the 3rd date we were having lunch and I noticed how blue his eyes were and his lovely smile. That evening I realised I was starting to fall for him. I haven’t seen him since.
He had said I had made an impression on him the first time we met in 1993. Which I guess is why he then pursued me 23 years later. I certainly remembered him and liked him but I didn’t fancy him. Besides we were both married to other people at the time so it wouldn’t have crossed my mind.
I wonder if he had built up this fantasy version of me and then he discovered I wasn’t perfect and a bit insecure. I’m not passing judgement – I’ve done it many a time myself. I’ve also fallen into the trap of falling for someone’s potential in the past.
So while there can be strong attraction at first sight love takes time to grow. I’m holding out for a man who is prepared to give it time too.
I would wager that everyone is searching for some sort of meaning in their life. There are probably as many ways of doing this as their are people in the world. Many are probably not even aware but everyone is motivated to do things that they think will make them happy. Even bad things. Because doing things that are unskilful (I prefer that to bad) can sometimes distract us from being with feelings, thoughts or emotions that may be painful or uncomfortable. Drinking or taking drugs is a prime example of this.
You see when I look at my life it has been pretty hard (by Western standards anyway). I was in an abusive marriage for 15 years and the abuse continued afterwards too, I am still single at the age of 53 having had my hopes dashed many a time, my eldest son is a homeless heroin addict and I have no idea where he is right now, I used to have a business and lost a lot of money in the crash of 2008 and had to sell my house to pay off some debts so I have no financial security (if anyone ever does), my ex husband died in 2014 so I am now my sons’ only parent, among other things. I am now consciously creating my life. I live in a beautiful area, I have enough money (for now) and some savings so I am richer than many in the world. But it’s not about material wealth for me, it’s about the riches within.
I would probably not have chosen this path if I had know differently when I was younger but all the hardships and good times have led me to where I am now. When my marriage became intolerable in 2001 I was so scared the only thing I could think of to do was to pray. I don’t believe in God in the Christian authoritarian sense but by praying – I didn’t really know who I was praying too – I found the strength within me to get out. It wasn’t easy by any means and I had 3 young children to think about too. What it did give me though, was faith, faith in something higher.
I have been studying Buddhism since 2007 and what I have learned from the Buddha’s teachings has helped me through many a difficult time since. I have learned not to take things so personally. Everyone is on their own journey and doing the best they can with the tools they have at their disposal. I was brought up in a Christian environment and now it all makes sense. I can see the meaning and symbolism instead of taking it all literally. I no longer want to be bound by the label of a ‘religion.’ Buddha wasn’t a Buddhist and Jesus wasn’t a Christian but we can learn from the examples they set. What I do like about Buddhism is that it recognises that everyone has the potential to become a Buddha.
We are all divine, spiritual beings. Human beings. The more we can let go and allow ourselves to be the more our divine nature shows through. We don’t need ‘fixing’, we don’t even need to search for anything. I now choose to radiate love, starting with love for myself. Love is the highest vibration. It is not weak, it takes strength to love. That’s why it’s hard sometimes, especially when we have been upset by someone else’s actions.See my previous post on forgiveness.
It is a paradox that when we reach enlightenment, we will realise that we were enlightened all along. I sometimes get glimpses of it in my meditation, that sense of pure love and light and peace with the world. That’s when I am reminded I can stop searching, I already have it within me. Of course I forget but one thing I always remember is to have faith.
Love to you all you amazing beings. Choose love, always.
… can be very hard but if we don’t we are the ones that suffer. Take a moment to think about a time when someone did something that upset you and you haven’t forgiven them. How does it feel? You see the think is if you are holding onto that resentment it hurts you, not them. Forgiving is not the same as forgetting or condoning someone’s actions. Rather it is recognising that they probably didn’t upset you intentionally and they are suffering too. Even if they did mean to hurt you it is because of their conditioning and chances are someone has hurt them.
I remember several years ago seeing one of the mothers of the children who was murdered by Ian Brady and Myra Hindley – the moors murderers – in the 1960s on the news. This was over 30 years later she was still wanting revenge. I know what happened is probably the worst thing that can happen to a parent but she was the only one who was suffering.
Around the same time there was a bomb in Northern Ireland and amongst those who were killed was a 3 year old boy. His father, who had lost his only son, was being interviewed on the news. The interviewer asked him if he wanted to get back at the IRA for what they had done. His reply was, ‘No, because two wrongs don’t make a right.’ You see he knew that holding onto hate would only make him suffer even more than he was already.
I know I sometimes set high standards for myself that I fail to reach so I have to learn to forgive myself. I look to the example of the Dalai Lama and his attitude towards the Chinese. It is possible but if we still find it too hard to forgive others we can start by forgiving ourselves…
A woman who knows her worth she wants a man who has his stuff sorted, especially by the time he reaches his 40s or 50s. She has been through a lot and has possibly been abused too so she is not there to rescue him. She already has a busy and fulfilling life and wants a man who will add to that.
A woman who knows her worth can’t be fobbed off by saying he is too busy. She is busy too but she will make time for a man she likes. No one is too busy to make a quick phone call or send a text. She has a full diary so wants to make plans in advance. She knows things come up unexpectedly so if he has to change those plans she would like him to let her know as soon as possible so you can rearrange. She won’t be upset and will have to do the same herself from time to time.
A woman who knows her worth she will always treat a man with respect. She will give him a second chance because we aren’t perfect. She does not want dramas from him, she has had enough of her own. If he changes his mind she wants him to tell her. She is strong enough to cope so there is no need to try and spare her feelings. She will be direct and tell him how she feels because she has the emotional capacity to express her needs. If he is unable to meet those needs she will walk away.
A woman who knows her worth will love a man like he has never been loved before. She is not perfect but she loves and accepts herself completely. If he loves her back he will be rewarded in more ways than he ever dreamed of. It may not always be easy but I guarantee it will be worth it.
Wishing you all love beyond your wildest dreams.
One of the joys of meditating and mindfulness is that you get to know yourself better. It’s not always easy because we have to face the dark side too! As we start to live more mindfully we become more aware of our thoughts and feelings and start to act on them less (hopefully!). We also start to notice patterns and how particular situations can trigger a strong reaction and leave us feeling hurt, upset or angry. We are only human and it can be dangerous to suppress these feelings because they will only resurface at a later date. However we can choose how we respond.
So what to do? As I try to live more ethically I always try to respond with love; firstly to myself and then to the person who may have done something that upset me. It’s usually the ones closest to us, our family and friends, who push our buttons the most anyway. It’s not easy because my first thoughts are usually to start blaming them for how they have acted. I try to remember that everyone is doing their best and it’s not personal even though it may feel like it. Everyone is a result of their conditions and if something upsets me I can look back and see how similar situations have provoked the same reaction. However I know that if I do respond skilfully in a loving way I will feel better about myself and I’m creating a better world for those around me too. If someone does something that hurts us the chances are they are hurting too so don’t they deserve love too? We all do. I still allow myself to feel what I’m feeling and by acknowledging the negative emotions it takes the power away from them.
Here’s to creating a more loving world one step at a time. Compassion is a radical act. The people or situations we have difficulty with can be our biggest teachers. Look at how the Dalai Lama responds to the way his people have been treated by the Chinese. What a wonderful example.
I have been using crystals for over 10 years now. I have also been meditating for almost as long and yet it was only today I thought of combining the two so I appreciate this is not a new idea. It’s just a new experience for me.
I am by no means an expert on crystals – I just know they work. I don’t even know the names of them (apart from rose quartz) let alone their qualities. I bought the ones in the picture above yesterday and have forgotten the names of them already.
The person who first introduced me to crystals told me choose the one(s) I liked and trust they were what I needed. And really that’s all you need to know. Pick up whatever you are drawn to and they will provide the healing you need.
I’ve had a difficult few weeks dealing with hurt and emotional pain. I was away in January visiting a friend and my meditation practice had slipped. So yesterday I went crystal shopping. The blue heart is to help with communication and protecting my aura. The others are for grounding. I definitely needed that as I am very good at spending too much time in my head and overthinking things. I walked around all day yesterday with the crystals in my pocket and felt their effects immediately.
So today when I sat down to meditate I was still very much in my head. Then I thought why don’t I hold the grounding crystals. I realise I may be preaching to the converted here but sometimes we overlook the most simple ideas.
The result? Difficult to describe sometimes but definitely miles better than before. My third eye is open again after having been shut for a few weeks now. I had completely forgotten about it and how much better it feels to have the chakras open again. I would just add though that I wouldn’t expect this kind of thing to happen all the time. It happens to me quite a lot but only recently because I have built up a depth of practice. It’s like paying into a bank account – of course it’s best to keep it topped up regularly – but if you miss a few payments the reserves are there already.
I see similar happening in the UK too, the end of McMindfulness. Reality isn’t always pretty…
We are about to see the demise of Bubble Buddhism in North America. It’s a long time coming, and it’s too bad that it takes the onset of a fascist dictatorship and a constitutional crisis to provoke it.
Bubble Buddhism is about to be completely discredited. The next time your beloved Teachersays “just relax”, “ultimately, everything is empty”, “don’t worry about phenomena, it’s all impermanent anyway”, he (she) will soundlike a total idiot. It just won’t work anymore. You won’t get the soothing hit of oxytocin and serotonin that you used to get from him (or ‘her’, but most likely ‘him’). Or you might get that hit, but then you’ll glance at your iPhone for a second and realize that your once safe and secure ‘relative’ world is shit getting flushed down the toilet. You toocannot escape this political catastrophe and it’s devastating effects. Not this time.
Or you might…
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